Woo, back-to-back blog entries!
Anyway, I've been thinking about vanity. I'll admit, I'm kind of obsessed with my personal appearance. I work out about an hour every day, I carefully control what I eat, and I have a skin care regimen to rival most girls.
However, I don't think that it's just vanity. I think that I am obsessed with changing myself. I don't know if this stems from a deep-seated insecurity/dissatisfaction, or whether I just get bored easily and want to change stuff about how I look.
I think it all started in high school with the hair dye. I'd dye my hair a color (strawberry blonde, dark brown, blue, purple, to name a few) and then within a few weeks I'd be sick of it. Then in college I started working out, and I also changed my hair style with regularity. Now I'm steadily accumulating piercings and have a tattoo, soon to be joined by at least one more, and my newest scheme is to start stretching out my lobe piercings (not too far, though, cause giant plugs are ucky.) I'm also never happy with my body, I'm constantly either trying to lose weight or put on muscle. For example, 2 weeks ago, I decided I was fat so I reduced my calorie intake and lost about 5 pounds. Now I've decided that I'm done with that and I've already started on the mass-building shakes again.
I don't really see all of this as a bad thing, although taken to excess it could result in negative consequences. For the moment, I'm going to embrace change and have as much fun as possible making myself look like a musclebound, pierced freak.
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Yeah, I don't think any of this is a problem. We're at that age, where we can mess around with our bodies. As long as you're not eating compulsively or wasting away, you're fine. And I can't believe you ever thought you were fat.
Also, ear plugs? Cool. Have you already started stretching your lobes?
In regard to your previous comment, that book sounds very interesting. Partly for that amazing praying mantis quote on your facebook profile. I don't think humanity is that terrible, but I'm very interested in how far people can be pushed, and where our true motives really lie.
Wow, why am I so long-winded in writing?
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